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I hate junk all day. It started bad and ended bad. Bethany came by but neither of us could find the will to work out. I have got to get back on my plan tomorrow. There are no excuses. My will is just weak and my "give a damn" is busted, as the song says. I am just too depressed or messed up to care much about my health or plan. Maybe it is a temporary state because I was out of some of my meds for several days. I just got them back yesterday and it hasn't been enough time for them to kick in yet. Maybe in a few days I can get myself together and get back in the game. Right now I feel pretty down on myself. I'm trying to distract myself from further eating tonight. Dail and I are watching "The Sum of All Fears." It is a great movie with Morgan Freeman and Ben Affleck. I know I am rambling from subject to subject here but I just wanted to blog and clear my mind of all these crazy thoughts. I wonder if the lack of Lithium affected me so much? I don't have much experience with it or with being out of it. I need to be more careful about my refills. It is easier now that we have insurance again. Most of my scripts are $10 co-pays. Most of Dail's are too. The only catch is that for script that lasts longer than a month, like Dail's testosterone, we have to pay 3 months worth or $30 for the vial. Thankfully, we are both on mostly generic scripts. We would be pretty much screwed if we were on name brands. The insurance only pays 50% of name brands and medicines are very expensive these days. It also looks as if I can get reimbursed for all or part of my meds check up visits. That is an unexpected plus, if it works out. My psych is semi-retired so she doesn't take insurance anymore because she doesn't have a staff to do her paperwork but she is still on the provider lists as being covered so I can file a claim and probably get reimbursed. My therapist, Kristin, will probably be covered except for a 30% co-pay. At least, I'm hoping that is works out like that. I won't know until the insurance information booklet arrives. I do wish they would hurry. It is hard to get the care we have waited a year for when we don't know what is covered.
As usual, I will have to practice my patience.
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I'm sorry you're going through a hard time Karen. I know it's easy to fall into that "don't give a damn" when you're so down but, and I'm sure you know this, this is when it's most important. Hang in there! Also, yes, be very careful about the refills. I do not do well if I miss a dose of Depakote. Two days of suddenly stopping and I just feel sick....not to mention an emotional mess. Can you put a reminder on your calendar? With insurance, you should be able to get your refills a week or so in advance. I know they only allow you a certain amount of days in advance.
ReplyDeleteWe are very fortunate in that we have good health insurance and copays are $10. I cannot tolerate the generic of Depakote and have to take the brand name so it is much more expensive per month..like $75! Still though, it's a small price in comparison.
Hang in there!
Thanks, Julie. It has been a rough couple of weeks really but some of it has been my own fault. Winter is always more difficult for me and I have tried to make too many changes at once. We were without insurance all last year and when I'm having a rough time already it is easy for me to avoid my refill appointments and just stay home. My psych usually wants to see me every month or two weeks. It has been hard to make myself go out of the house to make my appointments.
ReplyDeleteI do okay with the generic depakote. I'm fortunate that I never have bad reactions to medications. Thanks for coming by and offering support. I appreciate it. :)