Hoping For A Better Day

I was pretty down and strained yesterday. Too much of the past was running through my mind. I need to work all this out in therapy. I will be seeing Kristin again next Friday. Maybe then I can deal with the anger and frustration of the current and past circumstances. In the meanwhile, I'm trying to keep it from swallowing me whole and to focus on the task at hand. I was completely on track with my food yesterday. I ate much less and stuck to protein. The only treat I allowed myself was a few bites of microwave popcorn. The rest of the day was almost no carbs. I got in all my water and feel the carb haze lifting. I have a slight headache today from carb withdrawal but it is not unexpected. There is no junk food in the house so I will be on track today. So far I have had a few strips of bacon. The eggs will be coming next. My stomach will not allow me to each both together as it is too much food for one sitting. I have a the bacon for breakfast and then a couple of eggs for a mid morning snack. Lunch will probably be some Greek Yogurt. It has a few carbs but I have discovered that I need a few for balance. I am still technically low carbing but I am not doing induction anymore. We each have to find what works for us and this is what I followed to get to my lowest weight. There is just no getting around the fact that I am insulin resistant and that carbs will put weight on me if I'm not careful with them. The best way I can lower my weight is to lower my carbs.

I finished my book about Andy Kaufman last night. It was a tragic end to a comedic genius. He had his flaws and a very unusual perspective on life but what he did shook people up in one way or another and that was his goal all along. The book I read was written by Bob Zmuda, his best friend and there is a lot insight into the real Andy. The book is available at Amazon if anyone is interested.

I have my curtains open today. It is sunny but cold. I am watching for UPS to deliver my Twin Peaks series. It was supposed to come yesterday and I was pretty upset about it being late. It was just one of those things. I had paid extra shipping to get it here yesterday and things just didn't work out. I wrote to Amazon and they refunded the shipping fee so I feel better about it. Mostly, I was just emotional about everything else and was disappointed that Dail and I wouldn't get to start watching the series last night. Both of us had looked forward to it since I ordered it and so last night we were a little sad that our plans were changed. Hopefully UPS will be here in an hour or so and Dail and I can have a pleasant evening getting into a series that interests both of us.

Bethany will be here soon so I better stop now. I just thought I would check in even though I don't really feel like blogging. I will be around later to catch up with everyone and comment.

Sunshine